DISTURBED

It hurts when she does not notice you. Yes. It does. Most of the time she notices your mistakes and does not recognize your efforts at all. She only notices you when she's bored and she has no one else to bother. She does not care. You just don't understand her. You hate it when you feel like this. You don't hate her. You don't wanna hate her coz she's the only one left. You just hate the feeling when she scolds you like that. It just happened. She yelled at you. You only told her the truth. And she can't accept that. She didn't want to lose. She's the boss and you're her slave. She always tells you she has the right to enslave you coz she's the boss of the house. She's stubborn. She's childish. She's a pain in your heart. But what can you do? She's still your mom. And you will always love her no matter what.

ABUSED

For the past few days, I have been working my ass off for a school project. I slept at 4am and got up at 8am. How's that?!? 4 hours of sleep? Oh, I don't mind. I'm used to this. The course I'm taking up in college requires so much energy, time, patience and a lot more. Believe me. Architecture is hardcore. It's been three years since I first stepped into the halls of the University and yet, I still ask myself every now and then - why architecture? Why not!? - I tell myself. Though it's like going through a hole of a needle, I don't give a damn. I'm not gonna quit so easily.

GONE

It has been more than a year since my aunt left this world. She was like a mother to me. When I was young, my parents got separated. Since then, it was my aunt who brought me up. My mom was so busy working. So, I grew up getting used to my aunt's guidance. She taught me many things. Things that my mom was suppose to teach me. But hey, what can i do?!? She always says she's busy and all that. I don't even see her that often at home. I pretty much got used to the idea that my aunt was acting as my mom. She's loud at times but she listens. She listens to me. I like her because of that. She was very open-minded. The way she thinks is so cool. She supports me in my adventures in life even if I was still young. She always tells me to enjoy my life but I should know my limitations. My aunt never had a family of her own. I wanted her to marry and be a mom but I guess she had decided long ago to be with us until her last breath. Never in my whole life will I ever forget her. She was there when I needed a mom. My mom was always around but she wasn't there with me during my most crucial moments when I was growing up. It was my aunt whom I always come running to every time I fall. It was her. And now, she's gone forever. Forever.